Taking a break…
Sorry, but this has all got a bit too much for us. We’re going to take a break and try to regroup.
Comments will be off, or go unmoderated until we’re in a clearer frame of mind.
PDF Taking a break…
Just a note to say we’re going to be taking a break from everything for awhile. Need to do a bit of re-grouping and hiding. Nothing serious.
I know that most people just don’t update when this happens, but we’ve had online friends just not contact us for weeks and it’s been very triggery, scary and caused fears about their safety. We didn’t want to cause anyone undue concern through an innocuous break.
Take care…
Changing traditions
In an attempt to change some traditions and behaviours that occur at this time of the year due to anniversaries, we’re going to try something new – thanks to Amy for the idea. Each day for the next month we’re going to take a random photo and put it up here. Today we’re going to cheat a bit and use a photo we took awhile ago that some of us like.
Rain coming
Trying to explain DID and time loss to a friend…
Last night was interesting… We again struggled to sleep and ended up talking to Kriss (our friend in England) until about 3am. We started off talking using Yahoo messenger, which allows us to be more open as there is an increased level of safety that comes from talking without hearing their voice change into the “good grief this chick is crazy” tone – Kriss has never done this with us, but there’s always that fear.
It was his birthday just after Christmas, and unfortunately it was on one of the days that we “lost” to the dissociation. There was a brief spot of lucidity when we tried to phone, but it was pretty short lived. We tried to explain how we lose time – from just minutes through to weeks, and didn’t explain it all that well so ended up using going to Madagascar 2 to try and describe what happens…
Sophie, Buffie or Management will buy the tickets and get it all organised – making sure we’re on time, talking civilly to the mother etc. But when the movie starts the usual “me” that Kriss talks to steps back and a 5 year old comes forward to watch the penguins, an 8 year old comes forward to watch the monkeys, the 5 year old comes back to watch the dancing and a 3 year old comes forward to watch the baby animals.
Sophie, Buffie or Management have little knowledge of the movie and just lose that time to those other parts. Sophie has some awareness of it to ensure safety, but that’s it. She was told that this one wasn’t as good as the first one, and even the “Move it” song wasn’t as much fun.
We think he’s starting to understand it a little more, which is a bit scary. He also picked up when he started talking to Management rather than Buffie – that is unusual in that it’s such a smooth transition that most people don’t pick it up unless Management is suffering badly from hayfever…
So this is how the rest of us explain the dissociation and time loss, the librarian is going to write something about it later to look at it from a more peer reviewed, research point of view…
*Sigh* my blog is about to be highjacked
This blog was intended to be my space to look at serious issues… but now the others have realised that they like this interface better than the blogspot account we have.
Instead of trying to create further barriers within our system, we’re going to be melding the two together… *sigh*… there goes the neighbourhood… lol.
I’m assured that I can keep doing “serious stuff”, but they want to balance that and put it into context of what is happening in our life.
Despite my rather cynical outlook, I’m glad that we’re going to be working together.
