Anxieties… anxieties… anxieties…
In the “we are stupid” arena, we’ve excelled this week…
- We gave our American friend this blog link – totally forgetting how our confusion about him would read from his perspective. Sorry :(
- We’ve just sent an email to the clinical psychologist asking her what diagnosis she thinks we have and that we think she is moving ahead with changes without fully understanding the entire picture.
- We’ve just spat the dummy in a team meeting and said things we shouldn’t have.
So sitting here at work feeling sick with the anxiety. Hate the physical symptoms of the anxiety – the headaches, the body pains, the heart racing…
Wishing that we could take so many things back, but we can’t. Wishing that we would hear from our clinical psychologist or friend to find out what damage we’ve done…
Just wanting to scream or release the tension somehow…
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I’d guess that your friend understands your confusion. And your psychologist is working for you, remember. You have the right to ask questions.
You haven’t done anything wrong — you’ve taken a couple of positive risks. That’s terrifying. Breathe, and consider letting yourselves know that it’s harder for you to attend to their needs when they use physical anxiety symptoms to get your attention. Gentler communication, among all of you, is beneficial to them as well as to you. :-)
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Thank you David…
We’re trying to learn how to communicate positively, but there are so many barriers. I think that is why we’re having so many difficulties with our therapist, she’s trying to change something that we don’t know fully. If we don’t fully understand what is happening in this head, how can she?
I hope he understands… we don’t make friends easily and he has helped us in many ways.
Take care…
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